Eight days ago the earth’s population topped eight billion people.
So many different smiles.
I want to add one more to the world’s smile mobilization each day.
After 73 years, it’s about time.
I don’t smile enough.
What about you?
Smiling takes effort.
I’ve learned when my mouth creaks upward, endorphins scurry off to my brain.
If I do this enough, my chances of dying from a heart attack are reduced 9%.
That’s better than the little Statin pill I take before bed.
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Five years ago I tried an experiment.
One semester I crossed paths daily with another faculty member who I didn’t like because I thought she didn’t like me.
In the 20 years I knew her, she had never smiled at me.
Of course, I never smiled at her.
Do we ever stop being teenagers?
After a few weeks of curt nods at a sidewalk intersection, I smiled at Jo.
It was a ploy.
No, we never stop being teenagers.
I faked the feeling I hoped my smile was conveying.
Jo reciprocated.
One year later my partner Rebecca and I met with Jo in her office to talk about an off-campus program she had directed the previous year that we would lead later that year.
She generously provided many insights that would help us out. And continued doing so via email throughout our experience abroad.
Rebecca’s grandson Illan, with back to camera, granddaughter Irene, and son Jonathan. Photo by author.
It was 3:45 AM.
Our Uber ride, a white, lighted Hyundai with water vapor drifting from its tailpipe, was waiting outside to take us to the airport for a 6:20 AM return Flight to Kansas City.
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Story One
My partner Rebecca and I had been in Marblehead, MA for a week to attend the Bar Mitzvah of Emily and Aviv’s son Illan.
I asked if I could take pictures during the ceremony and was told yes. The photo above was of an open Arc that had just received back the Torah scrolls. Rebecca’s granddaughter Irene and son Jonathan closed the chamber doors. Irene is a first grader at an Episcopal school in Houston, Texas.
Protestant Rebecca and Catholic Paul read a Prayer for Peace.
On Illan’s day of honor and commitment, another car stood guard outside the synagogue.
Photo by author
Rebecca’s daughter Emily married Aviv 20 years ago. He had come from Israel with his family a few years before they met.
A decade after they married, Emily converted to Judaism. Illan’s sister Sivan will Bat Mitzvah in two years.
Story Two
The driver met us and our three bags on the top porch step.
He looked about sixty and easily stuffed the bags into the SUV’s trunk.
Once we were buckled in, he moved the car slowly forward and told us how much he enjoyed early morning pick-ups.
His easy chatter gave Rebecca permission to ask questions.
In the thirty minutes to the Boston airport, we learned our driver:
Is Korean; came to the USA 40 years ago, after his parents immigrated; has five younger sisters; lived 20 years in Jacksonville, Florida and 20 years in Atlanta, Georgia; moved to Boston with his wife six months ago to be near their two daughters and grandchildren; one daughter is an Endocrinologist, the other Director of Medical Services; Ubers every morning from 4 – 8; and plays golf once a week with his pastor.
When he said pastor, I knew Rebecca would ask, “Are you Presbyterian?”
Our new friend said “yes, of course.”
You might ask how we knew.
Not only have we watched all five seasons of Netflick’s Kim’s Convenience, a series about Canadian Koreans who are Presbyterian, but Rebecca is Presbyterian and knows about Presbyterianism in South Korea.
Our driver “talks to Jesus everyday.” And worries that so many young people are leaving the church. But is more proud of his daughters’ religious values than their material successes.
Story Three
Rebecca and I were as comfortable with our new Korean American friend’s God-talk as with his compressed life story.
As comfortable as Christian Rebecca is with her Jewish daughter.
As comfortable as Catholic Paul is with Presbyterian Rebecca and his 33 years teaching at Luther College.
Jesus and Torah
Francis and Calvin
Side by side, in peaceful co-existence.
The wondrous consequence of the American Constitution’s religious clauses.
It’s easy to take this comfort for granted.
Last fall we spent three months in Romania. When Rebecca told one of our Romanian friends about Emily’s marriage to Aviv and subsequent conversion, he said neither of these would happen in Romania and followed with
America is thirty years ahead of us
Story Four
But the police car guarding the synagogue reminded us of another story that will not go away.
Maybe America is ahead of Romania, but it’s not yet to the promised land.
This fear of those not in our religious tribe is deep in America.
And not just among anti-semites.
It resides in our memories and families.
My first girl friend was Jewish. It was 1966. My Catholic mom was not happy and said “you know, you can’t get serious.” Her parents were also opposed but tolerated me probably thinking it would not last. It didn’t.
My mom would also have opposed me dating a Presbyterian, even an Episcopalian.
America then was like Romania now, where Christians don’t marry Jews and Orthodox don’t marry Catholics.
I don’t know what my agnostic, Protestant-raised father thought about Sharon, my Jewish girlfriend.
But I do know what he thought about Catholicism.
Dody & Paul Gardner on their wedding day in 1948, in front of the altar, at Sacred Heart Cathedral
Before he and my mom married in 1948, my father began meeting with a priest as part of the Catholic conversion process. Apparently the priest treated my even-tempered dad so badly my father refused to continue.
For him, this priest’s intolerance became a proxy for what was bad about organized religion. At the same time, he came to love the Sisters of Charity, BVM and particularly Sister Marilyn Thomas, his sister-in-law. I know he took solace in their prayers later, as he was slowly dying of cancer.
He tolerated his three sons being raised Catholic but his refusal to become one was always a tension in their 45 year marriage.
My dad died of sinus cancer in 1993. As our family left the funeral home parlor before the casket was closed, I turned around and saw my mom place a rosary on my father’s defenseless hands.
I’ve thought about that image for thirty years.
If I could relive that moment, I would have waited for my mom to leave the room, and removed it.
A Veterans Memorial commemorating the men and women from northeast Iowa who served in America’s Armed Services now occupies a small park across from our home. It sits comfortably next to a playground and picnic shelter.
My partner Rebecca’s father served America during WWII as an electrician on a Navy ship in the South Pacific. My father, in the same area, was a Medic in the Coast Guard. Jason, one of Rebecca’s sons-in-law, is a Colonel in the Marines and has deployed in Afghanistan.
The obelisk in the photo presents the memorial’s main idea: how freedom sometimes requires force, including the instrument of war.
Armed forces were necessary to stop Hitler and to slow Putin.
But freedom’s enemies sometimes entrench inside a country.
So one citizen must fight another to expand freedom to a third.
Luman L. Caldwell was a Civil War veteran and Decorah’s only Medal of Honor recipient. Mr. Caldwell swam across an Alabama bayou to secure a small boat that was then used by his company to attack and capture a unit of soldiers.
In America, war was necessary to destroy slavery.
After slavery, the U.S. Army occupied the 11 Confederate States to protect the rights of former slaves, now American citizens.
When the army withdrew from those states in 1877, southern governors, legislators, and Ku Klux Klans created through law and terror an American Apartheid that would last for 80 years. As a consequence, six million Black American citizens migrated from their southern homes to places north and west.
More than 4000 were lynched.
The nonviolent Black Freedom Movement arose to redress these grievances. Resistance to the expansion of freedom to African Americans was violent.
In 1962, President Kennedy ordered the Army and National Guard units to protect James Meredith as he became the first Black citizen to enroll at the University of Mississippi.
Resistance led by Mississippi Governor Ross Barnett required 31,000 troops to quell the riots surrounding this effort to enroll an American citizen in an American university.
This new neighborhood addition shines its lights at night.
Photo by author
Freedom’s enemies, wherever they reside, require eternal vigilance.
A few days ago my partner Rebecca and I flew Southwest Airlines from Kansas City to Boston, with a brief stopover in St. Louis.
In St. Louis, all but nine passengers out of about 200 got off; that’s when I took this photo.
The seat pocket in front of me included an information card about our airliner: a Boeing 73 MAX 8.
This was the Boeing aircraft suspended in 2019 after two crashes killing 346.
You can read about why and the recertification process here.
Thankfully I was ignorant of that fact on the plane.
Which allowed me to focus on a performance by one of the three flight attendants.
He looked to be around 35, Asian, braces on his teeth, with a home base in Chicago.
And a style not to be missed.
We’ve flown Southwest for years and know its culture of humor and poking fun at airline routines.
Chicago was the best I’d ever seen.
One funny line after another, timed perfectly.
Delivered with the plane phone speaker propped at 45 degrees and dropped a bit between lines.
Three examples:
This Boeing is going.
If you leave something behind, you will find it tomorrow on e-bay.
And my favorite.
The pilots saw something on You Tube they wanted to try out on this take-off.
Uttered as we taxied to the take-off runway.
As the passengers deplaned in St. Louis, I noticed many still chucking and most made a point of eye contact, thanking, and saying good-bye to our Windy City friend.
When he closed the door for our continuing flight to Boston, for the matinee performance, I wondered whether his dialogue would be the same and whether it be stale.
Yes and no. Repeated and delivered with panache.
Performed for two hundred people strapped inside a narrow cylinder hurtling at 500 MPH at 30,000 feet, on a previously grounded Boeing.
The photo shows the front of our house, yesterday.
And the front of Hazel’s house, our 90 year old neighbor.
You can see Hazel down the sidewalk, with her little dog.
America’s midterm elections are next week and so there are political signs all over town including in front of both houses.
The five signs planted in our yard support candidates and an issue that align with our interests, values, and world views.
The two signs residing in Hazel’s yard do the same for her.
Hazel and I have never talked politics in the 15 years we have been neighbors.
But our signs tell us of us and the 100s of cars, walkers, and bikers that travel by our houses each day on our city’s Main Street that we support different sides.
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Photo by author
In this photo, you can see another sign announcing the academic Department I taught in for 33 years.
When I think about Politics, I begin with two people.
Not Donald and Joe.
Hazel and me.
We each have different interests, values, and world view.
The reasons for our differences like include: personality, upbringing and parental influence, religion, income, gender, education, occupation, marital status, ethnicity, race and sexual orientation.
I’m sure you can add several I missed. That might account for your own Politics.
Last fall my partner Rebecca and I lived in Romania for four months.
For almost 40 years, until 1989, Romanians lived under Communist dictators.
Politics died under Communism because freedom died.
The freedom to form different interests, values and world views.
The freedom protected in the American Constitution’s Bill of Rights and the 1991 Romanian Constitution.
Freedom means nothing if we can’t express our interests through support for candidates and issues that are extensions of us.
Hazel’s and my freedom require more than signs. It mandates a ballot.
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Photo by author
The photo above shows the new Winneshiek County Veterans Memorial at 4 AM across from our houses and signs.
The central idea of the Memorial is that force is sometimes necessary to protect freedom.
The Memorial’s eternal light guards our signs which express our differences which are a manifestation of our freedom.
It doesn’t protect just my freedom. But also Hazel’s.
Freedom’s value is best understood when absent, by those who don’t have it.
Hazel’s mother and my grandmothers could not express their interests through a vote until 1920.
It was not until 1965 that America’s Black citizens across the country could cast a ballot.
About the franchise, Martin Luther King, Jr. said:
As long as I am unable to exercise my Constitutional Right to vote I do not have command of my own life. I cannot determine my own destiny for it is determined for me by people who would rather see me suffer than succeed.
America’s true Politics is only two generations old.
One generation older than Romania’s.
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Politics honors freedom, difference and voice.
It is built upon a moral idea about the equality of all citizens.
Hazel might be richer, smarter, or more moral than me, but Politics sees both of us as precious and unique.
Our outer differences melt away to expose what the late Political Scientist E.E. Schattschneider referred to as “the warm, breathing, feeling, hungering, loving, hating, aspiring, living being with whom we identify ourselves.”
During the summer of 1968, I heard for the first time, my father express doubt about America. I was 18.
Martin Luther King ,Jr. had been assassinated on April 4, Bobby Kennedy on June 6.
Assassination is a form of anti-Politics, as is a dictator like Romania’s Nicolae CeauČ™escu.
Those who assaulted (not the protestors) America’s Capital on January 6, 2021 rejected Politics.
Those who rioted (not the protesters) in American cities after George Floyd’s murder rejected Politics.
My father’s lament in 1968: what is happening to America?
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Like my father 50 years ago, today, I am often discouraged about the particularities of America’s Politics. The Romanians we met last year felt the same about Romania’s Politics.
It is hard to love the Politics we see around us, particularly the nastiness.
But it is impossible to love the anti-Politics. And that is good. Some things are worthy of hatred.
Remember that Politics gives us an honest reflection of who we are, as a People.
The mirror does not lie; that makes it valuable.
Recall the alternatives to Politics: Ceaușescu in Romania, in America, assassinations, the assault against the Capital and counting of votes, and riots.
On Saturday, my partner Rebecca and I were hiking in Palisade park, a few blocks from our Decorah home.
The park is full of mountain bike and hiking trails.
We selected the Smeby Trail, ranked advanced, with an elevation of 872 feet.
Along Smeby, we met this car with Buick Eight on its grill.
Wikipedia tells me Buick made the Eight from 1940 through 1958.
Maybe my new friend and I share a birth year, 1949.
Years ago, someone abandoned him.
Put him out of sight because he was no longer any use.
Except as a reminder of what can happen when others define our value.
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Lately I’ve been wondering whether in 10 years I will be able to do something I’m doing now.
Examples:
Yesterday I carried four bags of 40 pound salt crystals for the water softener into our house and down into the basement.
Last week a colleague and I finished teaching a Life Long Learners course that met for three hours, on four Wednesdays.
In a few hours, Rebecca and I will do a 45 minute kettlebell workout.
What about advanced hiking trails?
I think society prods me to wonder whether I’m soon to be too old to do those things.
My Buick friend shows me where this leads.
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Someday I will become a human version of this abandoned Buick Eight.
Either above or below the earth.
For now, with yearly maintenance check-ups, regular oil & filter replacements, and an occasional glance under the hood, I should be good for another 100,000 miles.
Or the winter of Our Content — The Literary Version
Harland addresses our group. Photo by Carol A. Gilbertson
“I only want to Live Till the Age of 75”
I’m a hop, skip, and jump from 75 so when I saw this article by Donnette Anglin I needed to take a look.
Captivated by the topic, I googled “wanting to die at 75” and found Ezekiel J. Emanuel’s “Why I Hope to Die at 75.”
Donnette is 52. Ezekiel was 57 in 2014 when his essay was published.
Both authors described the feared and real challenges of the last quarter or the winter of our lives.
I fear them as well.
All of this was on my mind four days ago when I attended an Emeriti Colloquium at Luther College where I taught for three decades and retired from in 2018.
Over 75
The speaker was Harland and he is the fellow in bib overalls in the first picture.
Harland taught English and his talk was about growing up on a farm in northwest Minnesota.
He’s in costume and still teaching.
Harland is 96.
Photo by Rebecca Wiese of a Harland Nelson family photo
That’s Harland in dark glasses at 18 sitting next to his father.
When asked what he was looking at, he answered “I suppose life beyond the farm.”
Will is on the left. Photo by Rebecca Wiese
Will was making a point.
Like his friend Harland, he grew up in the rural upper midwest in the 1930s and 1940s.
He was describing how threshing rings (groups of families) planned card parties and other social gatherings that helped build community.
Will taught Religion and is 90.
Photo of Larry by Rebecca Wiese
Larry was explaining how a 1940s thresher machine worked.
He is a biologist and 88.
Photo of Ruth by Rebecca Wiese
Ruth is intense, even in repose.
She taught French and Italian and is my co-teacher in a Life Long Learning course we will teach this fall on The 1619 Project.
Ruth is 78.
Photo of Dave by Rebecca Wiese
I don’t remember the point Dave, another biologist, was making.
Maybe that’s because 20 years ago, as a college Vice President, he gently chided me for a snarky remark I made about the college’s poo-bahs.
I hope to lose my snark, when I turn 75.
Dave is 85. Thank goodness former administrators never fade away.
Photo by Rebecca Wiese
That’s me in the red cap looking and listening.
I’m going to be 73 and my photo-happy partner Rebecca is 71.
Most of those at Harland’s talk were over 75
The Last Quarter is where the game is won
Anglin and Emmanuel are right about the challenges of growing older.
There’s lots to fear.
But name a time in life when that was not so.
Raise your hand if you want to be 16 again.
No one understands the difficulties of life in the last quarter better than those who are still playing.
As I looked at Harland’s crowd, there was evidence everywhere.
Wheel chairs, walkers, canes, drooping heads, and at least one napper–sorry Harland.
Yet
They were all there.
Sill vital.
Sharing wisdom, experience and stories.
Photo by Rebecca Wiese
And Presence.
Because no one lives in the moment better than perennials.
Afterword
The phone holder below was carved by Jim, biologist # 3, who started these colloquia eight years ago.
On Tuesday morning, September 11, 2001, I was teaching in Luther College’s Main 211.
This is what the classroom looks like today.
Except for the raised TV monitor and computer, it looks the same as it did twenty one years ago.
In 2001, Main 211 had a TV but on that day it did not work.
Decorah, Iowa (All times are Central Standard)
I got to my office about 6 AM to prepare for an 8 AM class. I was teaching a new course, Struggles for Freedom, that compared freedom movements in three countries, Northern Ireland, South Africa, and America.
I completed my work in Koren Hall about 7:30 and strolled the 200 yards to Main and my classroom. The sun was to my back, on a clear day in the American midwest.
Main Classroom Building, Luther College
Always restless before class, I wanted to check whether there were enough chairs for the 16 of us.
Also on my mind was where to put the portable lectern to signal to students where I would be sitting. I decided to put it at the end of the table facing the door.
Because I did not plan to use the TV, I did not check whether it was working.
Tuesday, September 11 would be our 5th class meeting.
We started with Northern Ireland and that day’s topic was the role of terrorism in the conflict between Protestant and Catholic Communities.
It was a normal Tuesday morning on the Luther College campus in Decorah, Iowa.
Boston & New York (Times are Central Standard)
At 6:59 AM, American Airlines Flight 11 with 92 people took off from Boston International Airport destined for Los Angeles.
As I was preparing for my day’s work:
Captain John Ogonowski and First Officer Thomas McGuiness Jr. were going through their pre-flight routines.
Chief Flight Attendant Karen Martin was overseeing the boarding of passengers along with Flight Attendants Barbara Arestegui, Jeffrey Collman, Sara Low, Kathleen Nicosia, Betty Ann Ong, Jean Roger, Dianne Snyder, and Amy Sweeney.
Among the 81 passengers finding their seats were Mohamed Atta, Abdulaziz al-Omari, Wail al-Shehri, Waleed al-Shehri, and Stam al-Sugami.
About the time I was walking from my office to my classroom:
Flight Attendant Betty Ann Ong notified (7:19 AM) the American Airlines ground crew that Flight 11 had been hijacked. Ong provided information for 25 minutes.
Flight 11 & North Tower
As students began filtering into Main 211, at 7:46 AM
Mohamed Atta guided America Flight 11 into the North Tower of the World Trade Center.
Decorah
As students were settling into their seats, one mentioned he had heard on the news that a plane had crashed into the World Trade Center.
Before I asked my first question about that day’s Northern Ireland reading, at 8:03 AM:
Marwan al-Shehri steered United Flight into the South Tower.
In 2001, no one had a phone or personal computer to see news in real time.
Unknowing, we continued class.
Just as Hani Hanjur maneuvered American Airlines 175 into the Pentagon, at 8:37 AM, a student poked her head into our classroom and told us another plane had hit the World Trade Center.
We all looked at her, then at each other. I went to the TV and discovered it was not working.
I then told the class to go and find a find TV. Most scattered but a few stuck around to chat. I said there was a TV in the Administrative Assistant’s Office in Koren.
We walked briskly across campus and climbed the three flights to Chelle Meyer’s office.
We joined Chelle and a couple of student around her little desk TV, at 8:59 AM, and watched in real time the collapse of the World Trade Center’s South Tower.
Seven minutes later the passengers of of United Flight 93 forced Ziad Jarrah to ditch his guided missile into a Pennsylvania field well-short of the targeted US Capital or White House.
At 9:28 AM, two minutes before my Freedom Struggles’ class would have ended, the North Tower of the World Trade Center collapsed.
2712 killed and 6000 injured, on Tuesday, September 11, 2001.
Why the most memorable day?
9/11 would live in my memory regardless of what I had been doing on that day. Just as November 22, 1963 or those terrible 1968 dates, April 4 and June 6 live on.
But politics, religion, and terrorism — all came together on that Tuesday. Just as they had on April 19, 1995, in Oklahoma City.
I needed to know more about what was going on in the world that would produce these horrors.
In the summer of 2002, I developed a new course, Terrorism and Democracy.
I had never studied terrorism in graduate school.
I thought it would be a one-off.
I taught Terrorism and Democracy every year until I retired, in 2018.
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